i'm a nervous drunk
got my mother's anxiety
there must be something more
than avoiding sobriety
it's just another day
of sitting in my room
callously coughing
i smoke til i puke
i can't remember my days
memories blend together
it's all the same
and i wanna get better
but i'm alienated
bitter and depressed
and i can't escape all my terrifying regrets
beast
i am the beast
feral and hungry
i kill what i eat
i am the beast
wild and free rabidly hungry
running in circles
through subway stations
i eat bags of flesh
and meditate in radiation
i never sleep
and i smashed a rat's skull
even when you're free
life is still kinda dull
tired and lonely
don't even have my own thoughts
and the glowing of my skin
has my stomach in knots
never age or grow
just confined in time
i got them feral blues rattling through my mind
beast
i am the beast
feral and hungry
i kill what i eat
i am the beast
wild and free
rabidly hungry